Day 8-My first weigh in!

Today was my first official weigh in on the Ideal Protein Diet. I weighed myself this morning, post pee, pre-coffee(the only way to go!) and I was down 6 lbs!
When I got to the weigh in at 5:15 I was nervous...breakfast..lunch...water...clothes...so many factors! And...(drum roll please)...I was down 6 lbs! WooHooo!!! That is a really good 1st week in my opinion. When I told her about my vegetable cheats, she (the nurse practitioner who runs the program, who is so nice!)said that they weren't bad cheats and not to worry too much but that those 3 glasses of wine means 3 more days until ketosis kicks back in.
Damn, I like my wine and want to have a little on weekends! She said a lot of dieters drink a little bit and while it won't completely mess you up if you are moderate about it, I would definitely have lost more if I hadn't done it. More than 6?! It might have been 7 or even 8! Ack!
Yes, I enjoyed my Cabernet but why can't I just be good?! I am from the instant gratification generation, dammit!
It's 3 months until my wedding and the more I can lose the better so I really have to think of the big picture...and remember that big me in the big white dress picture, as well. That is not how I want to look at my wedding! I already realize I am a middle aged bride(uh huh, middle aged if I live to 96!), but I should still be able to be an attractive bride....maybe even a hot bride!
I don't want to sound conceited but I am not an ugly woman. I have been hot at different times in my life and gotten a lot of attention from men of all ages and had the typical dislike from insecure women.
Unfortunately, I am not hot on an "all the time" basis because while being fit is hot and being voluptuous is hot, being fat is not. I don't look hot, I don't feel hot.
Actually about 4 years ago, when I lost weight with Weight Watchers and was 15 lbs. away from my goal, I took a nice picture of myself and put it on hotornot.com and my score with that picture is still 9.5 out of 10. It's isn't a sexy picture by any means, either, just me standing there smiling and it's from the waist up(so my big booty doesn't show!)
At 48, I'd be happy being an 8! Right now, I am maybe a damn 5 and that just isn't good enough!
Have...to.....stay....on...program...and no cheating! Easy to say now, right? I am days away from Saturday night where I will think, oh, I've been so good all week and should be able to have a glass or 2 of wine!