tuesday 4/27

Well, tomorrow is another weigh-in and I think I did better than last week. I really have been off my game lately and my willpower seems non-existent. This is the 9th week on this diet and I miss bread! I also miss fruit a lot!
It has been difficult sticking to it lately, I think I have had enough mentally and it may be because I am under a lot of stress with the wedding coming so soon. I always turned to food when stressed...or sad..or happy...or angry...or bored...argh!
I did say no to Girl Scout cookies today which was not easy-they were somoas, which are pretty delish, although too sweet...had they been thin mints there would really have been a problem! Who the hell can say no to thin mints?!? I am merely human and thin mints are like the nectar of the gods! So thank God , they were only somoas! Whew!
I went for my first fitting yesterday and the seamstress's words were, "Oh, why did you buy such a big dress, honey, this is a disaster!" Oops! She wants me back with a good supportive bra on Thursday, which I bought(36C-no longer a 38!) I told her I plan to lose more weight and maybe she could wait and do the other stuff like the bustle and the change to the neckline. She said she'd start the deconstruction part,which she said was completely taking the sides apart and that I shouldn't be disappointed if I lose some beading. I am not disappointed if I lose beading at my sides being I don't think anyone would notice and the loss is because of weight loss!
She said if she does start sewing she will make it too tight for me, so I can lose more. She is older and has been doing this all her life and is a feisty little Greek lady and I think she will do as she pleases! She showed me pictures of some things she has made and they were gorgeous! She's worked for Harper's Bazaar and has made dresses and gowns for the rich and famous over the years.
I know I keep talking about the wedding and not just about the Ideal Protein Diet, but the wedding is consuming me right now! So, sorry!